Child seizures

It is deeply confusing. Makes you want to doubt God.

But just one, the threat of losing just one, makes it all feel ruined.

Anything to redeem this situation?

Child seizures

Why in God’s name does a child suffer from seizures?

It is deeply confusing. Makes you want to doubt God.

Mom, Dad, terrorized like terrorism.

Third party to the suffering and it makes me cry.

Grandma, Grandpa, so happy and content to be the stewards of seven grandchildren.

But just one, the threat of losing just one, makes it all feel ruined.

Anything to redeem this situation?

Time. A lessened intensity anticipating another seizure, but the fear will never go away.

That little boy, that little consciousness, that inability to understand why their body and soul are writhing. 

No understanding of medical explanation, just shaking, the threat of another inner earthquake unexplained.

God, where are you? 

For the love of GOd…heal that child.

The test of love, the pain gauge.

We take hits from the outside world and feel it all happening within.

The pain comes at us and it fills up our love gauge.

When we suffer long enough, hard enough we reach a breaking limit.

Then it comes full force, love exponential in powers of two.

With that extraordinary gift of love we are resilience and that’s why things bounce back.

For our brief history of time, pain and love are siblings. 

Our children are the source and the origin of love.

Freeman is love.

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Why do we get hurt?

Why does Freeman continue to get hurt>

He’s almost totally innocent innocent as could be. 

How can you deserve this pain? 

If he was a grown man one might find something to blame. 

But this is a child. No one could possibly be to blame. 

So who is? 

God is to blame. God set things in motion and never looked back.

Everything unfolded according to pain and pleasure but it was never designed. 

It evolved. 

The love between the father and the mother of Freeman evolved.

It was not predestined, it happened.

And then Freeman happened. 

Happiness happened and evolved for this little family. 

There are a multitude of ways to be happy. 

There are a multitude of ways to feel pain. 

There is heaven and there is hell. 

and we oscillate between them over time and within time.

We don’t know when or where or how but in this life we will know both. 

The hell continues and within it we can’t even imagine anything outside of it. 

And we pray. We keep praying. 

The whole community of family and friends pray. 

We pray. 

We learn to pray to God that this hell will end. 

We learn to pray better for the suffering of others. 

As we realize what suffering entails, when we understand what it is that people are talking about when they ask for your prayers, then you know what it means to be human.

You will never forget what it means to be human in all our capacity for pain. 

You have joined the camaraderie of brokenness.

Time. A lessened intensity anticipating another seizure, but the fear will never go away.

That little boy, that little consciousness, that inability to understand why their body and soul are writhing. 

No understanding of medical explanation, just shaking, the threat of another inner earthquake unexplained.

God, where are you? 

For the love of GOd…heal that child.

Why in God’s name does a child suffer from seizures?

It is deeply confusing. Makes you want to doubt God.

Child seizures

Why in God’s name does a child suffer from seizures?

It is deeply confusing. Makes you want to doubt God.

Child seizures

Why in God’s name does a child suffer from seizures?

It is deeply confusing. Makes you want to doubt God.

Mom, Dad, terrorized like terrorism.

Third party to the suffering and it makes me cry.

Grandma, Grandpa, so happy and content to be the stewards of seven grandchildren.

But just one, the threat of losing just one, makes it all feel ruined.

Anything to redeem this situation?

Time. A lessened intensity anticipating another seizure, but the fear will never go away.

That little boy, that little consciousness, that inability to understand why their body and soul are writhing. 

No understanding of medical explanation, just shaking, the threat of another inner earthquake unexplained.

God, where are you? 

Child seizures

Why in God’s name does a child suffer from seizures?

It is deeply confusing. Makes you want to doubt God.

Mom, Dad, terrorized like terrorism.

Third party to the suffering and it makes me cry.

Grandma, Grandpa, so happy and content to be the stewards of seven grandchildren.

But just one, the threat of losing just one, makes it all feel ruined.

Anything to redeem this situation?

Time. A lessened intensity anticipating another seizure, but the fear will never go away.

That little boy, that little consciousness, that inability to understand why their body and soul are writhing. 

No understanding of medical explanation, just shaking, the threat of another inner earthquake unexplained.

God, where are you? 

For the love of GOd…heal that child.

For the love of GOd…heal that child.

Third party to the suffering and it makes me cry.

Grandma, Grandpa, so happy and content to be the stewards of seven grandchildren.

But just one, the threat of losing just one, makes it all feel ruined.

Anything to redeem this situation?

Time. A lessened intensity anticipating another seizure, but the fear will never go away.

That little boy, that little consciousness, that inability to understand why their body and soul are writhing. 

No understanding of medical explanation, just shaking, the threat of another inner earthquake unexplained.

God, where are you? 

For the love of GOd…heal that child.

Mom, Dad, terrorized like terrorism.

Third party to the suffering and it makes me cry.

Grandma, Grandpa, so happy and content to be the stewards of seven grandchildren.

But just one, the threat of losing just one, makes it all feel ruined.

Anything to redeem this situation?

Time. A lessened intensity anticipating another seizure, but the fear will never go away.

That little boy, that little consciousness, that inability to understand why their body and soul are writhing. 

No understanding of medical explanation, just shaking, the threat of another inner earthquake unexplained.

God, where are you? 

For the love of GOd…heal that child.